What's In My Wallet?

So what's in my wallet, you ask?

because there's nothing bloody interesting with my wallet.
no photos, make-up or even condoms. I am boring like that!

I have a rosary that I got as a graduation gift, two sets of cash; the first one is for work errands with its accompanying receipts, the second one is my own stash of cash and food receipts, paracetamol, anti-histamine and flu meds (aka, my life savers!), my brother's postal ID, my PhilHealth old school ID, a loyalty card from saint alps (trust me, I'll lose this. it never fails!), movie tickets, savings account ATM and CBTL swirl card and tons of prepaid cards (making a mental note to myself: GET A FUCKING POSTPAID PLAN!)

So, how about yours? What's in your wallet guys?

Get up & Try

When there is desire,
there is going to be a flame.
Where there is a flame,
someone's bound to get burned.
But just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die.
You gotta get up and try, try, try

Try
// Pink

The Thing About Relationships

I found this very interesting blogpost from Jane Chua, one of the bloggers whose blog I've been reading since God knows when. So after reading it, all I can say was it definitely rings true to me!

And so to all of you who will come across this, I hope you learn a thing or two here. I think this reminder (or rules, if you ask me) applies to all humanity :)

Lessons learned by a thirty-something guy who is six feet under the ground: — well me, Milo.

On relationships and friends:

1. Never be with somebody who does not make an effort to make you feel wanted or needed.

2. Never be with somebody who cannot talk about the future with you, who finds it hard to make plans with you.

3. Never be with somebody who cannot make you laugh.

4. Never be with somebody who undervalues you and puts you on a low priority list, below work, and even worse, prioritizes other people more than you. This is actually a no-brainer.

5. Never be with somebody who takes you for granted just because they know how much you care for them and that they will always be forgiven.

6. Never be with somebody who does not love you as much as you love them. Better be the one who is loved more. In the end, you will learn to love back as much.

7. Never be with somebody who is afraid to receive because they know that they can only give you so much in return.

8. You know when you have cared and loved most. Sometimes it works out, sometimes it does not. You have invested so much energy, patience, attention and time yet it does not work for you. Learn to walk away when its time.

9. Know your worth. Know what you deserve after showing and giving so much. A relationship can never be a one-way thing for you are bound to get tired and lose self-respect.

10. Love yourself more than anybody else. Do not forget how great you are.

— Excerpts and learnings from Milo’s life —

I personally can relate to all of this. But numbers 1, 5, 8 and 9 hits right home. Especially number 9... because really, YOU MUST KNOW YOU WORTH.

ALWAYS.

The Morning After

I would never forget that morning. Waking up with drowsy eyes and messy hair while recalling the previous night.

I would never forget that morning. Waking up next to you, sleeping peacefully – snoring like nobody’s business.

And I tried not to mind.

I would never forget that morning. As I stare at you in silence and listen to your breathing.

I would never forget that morning. As I feel your skin on me that made me didn’t want to leave the bed.

Still, I tried not to mind.

I would never forget that morning. As I try to convince myself that this wasn’t a dream anymore.

And then I hugged you. Surprisingly, you hugged me back.

I tilt my head and kissed you.

You opened your eyes. I lay still and waited.

You looked at me and smiled reassuringly,

Slowly I blinked, breathe deeply until I smiled convincingly.

So now it’s hard for me not to mind at all.

I would never forget that morning, where everything was just so calm, so perfect.

That morning was a sign:

That lessons were learned,

That the past was buried with a promise,

And a story will be left untold.

––– So as much as I try to not mind, I’m sorry. I just can’t.

I would never forget that moment, ever.

Because that morning, I found myself leaving a bit of myself and my heart somewhere in your bed.

Change

Little by little, laughters are turning into tears.
Little by little, big smiles are turning into exhausting sighs.
Little by little you notice it, you feel it.

You know that change is on its way.

When more questions rises instead of answers
about life and self,
about love and others,

Suddenly you know it –
Change. It’s happening.

You find yourself asking, why?
Deep inside you know,
The answer, the truth.
It’s up to you then to accept it.


© 11:30am